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Sometimes we can be so fucking smart that we actually negotiate so much with our minds that we work against ourselves. This shows up in so many ways. Example: I have a goal to get out of bed at 5 am every Wednesday to go to a HIIT class. Then the brain negotiations: well you can always do it after work so that means you get to sleep an extra hour. I mean it doesn't really matter WHEN you do it, so long as you do it right? It’s kinda rainy out, do you want to get your shoes wet? If I don't go to class this time then I'll commit to going to the rest of the classes this month. etc etc etc and on and on it goes as I'm sure you understand because we do this with literally everything that is good for us and helps us out in any way.

This class, for example, is a priority. Even moreso-working out and feeling good is a priority. But maybe we can take it one step further.

In addition to making something a priority-we must make it non-negotiable.

We make action steps that will help us achieve our goals (if they’re working and serving us) non-negotiable. Ie: we do not make room for allowing our minds to out smart us out of the things that we truly want. There are a lot of things as a creative that I don’t really want to do but I know that I need to do them. I need to do them to allow my voice and vision to be heard and seen, I need to do them to create an audience, I need to do them because if I want to pay my bills with my own business then I need to do the hard NON_NEGOTIABLE shit that will make that happen. I would much prefer to sit and draw and embroider all day-not take pictures of anything, not post things to instagram, not contact galleries for shows, the list goes on. But I have to implement the action steps of allowing my work to work for me and that makes the things that I don't really want to always be doing not just a priority but a non-negotiable.

Waking up an hour early each day to meditate and journal has become a non-negotiable-simply because I'm a bit of a monster without doing it. I need that simple quiet space to gather my thoughts, gather my heart, and set my mood and intention for the day. My daily mental health is not only a priority- its NON NEGOTIABLE. that simple flip in idea changes a lot and moves things into better alignment. That shift in thinking allowed me to realize that i was justifying my INACTION through "logic" and "reasoning" that my brain was really good at doing.

in a lot of ways i feel that negotiation and doing these mental olympics with yourself is a fear response. It can seem ridiculous but we often fear our abilities. fear our potential. We can fear the possibility of reaching our goals, achievement, and being exactly who we believe we can be. Because we all know that when you work towards achieving goals, striving to be better, and doing more each day what do we usually come across? The big brick fuck-you-wall-of-failure. Which is truly awesome because failure is just as much of the process as success (this will be a topic I explore more in depth later-because lordt knows we all love to hate failure).

I love me some journaling- it helps me brain dump and organize my thoughts, work things out, and generally voice everything that I have tossing about in my mind. I’ve created a freebie journaling prompts sheet that you can download on the topic of priorities and non-negotiables. I’ve also created some mantra images that you can print surrounding this topic that hopefully will help you remember to keep yourself (your mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual health) NON-NEGOTIABLE!

I would love to hear your thoughts on this. Are there any priorities that you’ve set for yourself that you seem to be unable to show up for? Is the shift of priority to non-negotiable helpful for you? What would you like to make non-negotiable for yourself? Are there any tips and tricks you can give to help create this mental shift?

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I really don’t like cleaning; but I really love having a clean and organized space. Because I’m an average person that doesn’t have the extra cash flow to hire someone to do this work for me, I decided that instead of letting all of my shit pile up for weeks and then go on a cleaning frenzy I should create a cleaning schedule that makes my life easier. Sometimes creating a system helps to break certain tasks down into more manageable chunks. How’s the saying go? How do you eat an elephant-one bite at a time! Same rings true for me and housecleaning and generally any sort of adulting. But adulting, at the end of the day, makes me feel good. And it leaves my mind and time open to do other things that I truly enjoy more be it cooking, creating, reading, or doing nothing.

I’ve included a PDF of my personal weekly cleaning schedule that I hope helps you out too! Keep in mind that this cleaning schedule is built and created for a one bedroom apartment but I believe that it’s broken down in a way that could be applicable to any type of home you have. And because I really love doing things other than cleaning, the bulk of the cleaning is done during the work week-which leaves your weekends entirely cleaning free aside from the daily maintenance shit like dishes. But if your work week lands your weekends on different consecutive days then, by all means, adjust accordingly to keep you free of chores as much as possible during your days off!

There’s nothing like the feeling of having a clean and organized home, because for me I feel like it allows me to have a clean and organized internal space as well. I don’t know if you’ve noticed this, but when I’m feeling internally gunky and generally don’t know what I’m doing with my life-my home will reflect that. There will be piles of books and papers everywhere, dishes in the sink, and I haven’t folded laundry in two weeks. It’s the physical equivalent of keeping all the tabs open from my brain except it’s spilling all over my table and I have to move everything to eat dinner. No bueno. So, instead, I use this to help keep my physical and internal worlds clutter free!

Do you have any tips or tricks for creating a clutter free space? Do you have a schedule that you like to follow or do you struggle with keeping the clutter and mess under control? Let me know how and if you notice a correlation between internal and external clutter! I think it’s an interesting parallel to discuss!

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Hello! I wanted to introduce myself and give you an understanding as to what I wish for this space to be and what I hope to accomplish! My name is Maria and I have been on some level of a spiritual and wellness journey or path since I was about 8 years old. I've lost my way from time to time but always end up coming back to source. Throughout my time here on earth I have been ecstatic, devastated, content, broken, apathetic, fulfilled, sick, well, and everything in between. I wish and will strive for this space to be a place where I'm able to share the lessons from these states of being, knowledge that I've acquired, fuck-ups, mis-steps, wisdom that I've gained, and questions yet explored. 

The foundation of this blog will be based on an understanding that i have come to: there are key fundamentals that, I believe, we require to live in our fullness. Every single one of us was born and meant to be at our fullest and highest self. There are NO "throw away" people in the sense that all of us have an innate purpose to our existence. And, as we've all experienced, there are a lot of elements that seem to cause us to not live this way. We become distracted, tired, discouraged, confused, and don't know where to begin. In my own journey of striving to live in my fullness, I've realized a through line of certain factors that remain a constant. These are the separate fountains that individually contribute to and make up my Foundations of Fullness. 

1-Conscious/mindful/informed/pleasureful eating

2-Spiritual relationships and practices

3-The relationship with self/internal/shadow work


5-Creative/artistic expression/making/curation of your space

6-Body maintenance/exercise/movement

7-The sharing of your gifts

These are, for me, what have truly been the keys to living in my fullness. I am a real ass person doing my best on this journey that I call The Mess of Rising. Some days I feel like I have it all together and then other days I eat tater tots for dinner. But you know what: both are real, both are valid, both are beautiful, and both are necessary. If I ever feel out of balance or out of alignment, I check in with where I am in these categories and will always find an imbalance or lack. In following posts, I will go into detail about what each of these foundations mean to me and how I define them. From there, all posts will hopefully serve to help myself and you keep each of these fountains flowing and your cup full. There will also be a healthy dose of art, tutorials, printables, journal prompts, and more!

There is no perfection on this path and that’s an amazing and liberating thing. We’re all just doing our best and this is my contribution to hopefully help you, myself, and the collective. I hope that you will find this space encouraging, engaging, informative, helpful, challenging, and inspiring!